I just recently had a little health scare. I was called back for a follow up to my mammogram because they thought they saw something off. This has never happened before and it rattled me a little. Ironically, or not, I had been reading a book where a mom died of breast cancer when I realized I was over due for my annual checkup. And I got a little extra nervous when I realized I had somehow forgotten to do my checkup last year. So I made my appointment immediately.
After my check up, they called the next week and asked me to make a second appointment to get some extra images taken. Another irony was I had just decided to team up with a friend and personal trainer to start shifting my lifestyle so I could become a person who exercises and eats well regularly to feel more energetic, strong, confident and healthy in my life. So it would really suck to get bad news and have to instead make a plan to fight off a disease. During the couple of weeks I had to wait for that appointment, which in itself was perhaps an indication I didn’t really have anything to worry about, I had an opportunity to do three important things. 1. Practice what I preach to my mom all the time and not worry until I have something to worry about. 2. Seriously commit to my new overall health and wellness routines. 3. Start facing my fears of death and the unknown in a way that empowers me so they can no longer hold me back in my life. Staying busy and focusing on getting my new workout and eating plans in place helped take care of #1 and #2. And this desire to improve my health regiment was actually brought on to tackle #3. My feelings and fears around death have begun to come up again because of this Covid pandemic. And they seemed to have come to a head around the Pisces Full Moon with the constantly rising death toll and for me with this little health scare. I have always had a fear of the unknown, of which death is the ultimate. I realize I often don’t put myself out there fully in ways I really want to because I fear a potential negative response that will somehow hurt me. And honestly, all of my seeking to understand the mysteries of life is in an effort to dissolve and overcome my fears. Because I know living in fear can be in itself a killer. A killer of confidence, joy and especially your health. And as I have been limiting my outings only to the essential things and wearing masks everywhere I do go to protect myself and others as much as possible, I’ve also gotten more tired than ever of being afraid. This has become the last call on fear for me. So I made the decision I would do whatever I had to do to survive any diagnosis that might come, ever, and I would also take my power back to do all I can to live a longer and more vital life. This week we have our Virgo New Moon just before we end this season that focuses our attention on mind, body, and Spirit health and alignment. So if you haven’t already made some doctors appointments, decisions about what your health really means to you, or put any new routines in place to improve your daily life, I’d highly recommend it. The saying, “if you don’t have your health, you don’t have anything” rings clearer than ever these days to me. And death is a certainty I can count on coming some day for sure. I can’t do anything about that. But I can take care of my energy and my body so I can stay longer, enjoy my life more fully and fulfill more of my potential before I have to go. Truth is, if you don’t take care of your body, where are you going to live while you’re here? This year and more so during this Virgo season, I have come to live and learn this at a new level of awareness. Once again Astrology has proven itself to be a nurturing guide and teacher on my journey. I hope some part of my story can empower you on yours. Nurture your Nature - Inside & Out - For your well Being!
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